Being a mom

I really had no idea being a mom would change me so drastically. I knew life would change, obviously.  But me? I didn't have a clue as to how much one little girl could change me down to my very soul.

One thing I've noticed is my selfishness has turned into selflessness. I only worry about my daughter and my husband. Here I am, sick as a dog, and all I can think about is if he brought a blanket for the baby (he didn't ) or if he fed himself (nope).

Another thing that's changed? My opinion on places to live. I'm sure you know, I used to basically be in the "California is the best" mindset. Don't get me wrong, it's still the best....but it'snot the best for my daughter right now. Which means that for the time being, I won't be living there either. I'm moving to a place that was never on my list of places to live (mostly because bugs scare me and i don't like humidity). Everyone says the south is going to be this giant culture shock, and they're probably right....but I know I'll be fine, because my daughter will be happy.

That seems to be all that matters to me. Her happiness.

And don't get me started on the lack of sleep. But again, it doesn't matter. Because when i stumble into her room at 3 a.m. with a bottle and a bad attitude,  i see her face, and suddenly I'm happy to be there. Sometimes I'm even secretly happy my husband didn't get to her first.

I'm no longer the person I used to be. I put her before everyone. Even people i once constantly made excuses for. I guess I'm not the teenage gypsy anymore. Now I'm a mama wolf ;)