I wonder...

I'm up this late wondering if history is doomed to repeat itself. 

If I was meant to end up here, this way, at this time no matter what. 

If this was all preordained. Or did we all make choices that got us here?

Did you lying to me help or hurt what was supposed to happen?

Or was it just the part of history you were supposed to repeat?

I want to cry. But it's not an option.

Because this is my role. The strong one.

I hope you enjoy being the weak one, because it's the only role left to play.

Choices

I've always wondered why we make the choices we do when everything you know tells you its a bad idea. 

The flashing neon sign that is your common sense is going off like it's Friday at the club.

And you, the one in control of your body (though if we are being honest common sense should probably be in control 99% of the time) decide to ignore it. 

You're like, "No, this is a great idea, why should I listen to the perfectly logical part of my brain?"

So here I am. And this is where it's brought me. And I feel like a complete moron.